“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”
I get it. I cannot experience the peace of God, that peace that surpasses understanding, if I hang on to my anxiety. Because that means I am not trusting God. I am experiencing a fair amount of anxiety lately and it saddens me that I am not able to trust Him more.
I was told by a friend that, if we are worried for our children, we should just bring them back to God time after time until the worry lessens. And that it will lessen even if you find you’re lifting them up to Him every hour all day long. So that’s what I’m going to try to do with my current worry over some personal concerns.
I should not hold on tightly to my fears, until my vise-like embrace leaves no room for light and peace. I will strive to embrace gratitude and give thanks for God’s love for me. Ultimately, my prayers for the abandonment of fear and worry will bring me closer to my God and to trusting Him again. I suppose I must be grateful to God even for my anxiety. It pushes me on toward Him and reminds me of His love for me. Even when I doubt, even when I’m fearful. I really do know, deep down inside, He’s there, loving me.