“…as holy as I should…”

In Psalm 12 the psalmist reminds himself and us that God always protects and asks that God “preserve us from this generation.”

And how many generations have passed since then? Generations that have included people up to no good because they did not know Good. Or they knew but turned their backs. But it wasn’t everyone. It never is. So there are always those asking for God’s protection and to be “preserved.” Or to be delivered from people with evil intent. We could just use the words in the familiar prayer from Jesus, “deliver us from evil” in our plea.

I pray those words more often than I wish were necessary. So many people who need to be delivered from evil, including myself. But, unlike the Psalm 12 prayer, it is not always because of people around me. It is from things that are lurking within my own being. Scary? Maybe. Sad? Could be. But I do have that right and that amazing blessing from God to seek His help. I have to remember that God dwells within me, with the Resurrection power that raised Jesus from the dead. And so I have, we have, the ultimate victory.

I don’t need to be afraid, but I cannot be complacent and think I’ve got it all together and have no need of God’s grace. I always do. So I need to acknowledge my own human weakness and rely on God’s perfect strength. No one defeats that. But I have to take a look at what’s going on inside me and make sure I’m not resting in the wrong things. I can only rest in God to truly be where I need to and want to be. And I need to stop looking solely at the world around me with all its troubles, but take a look at my own weaknesses and faults. That calls for humility.

The Litany of Humility composed by Rafael Cardinal Merry del Va (1865-1930) was adapted into an amazing song by Matt Maher. You can find another meditation based on the Litany and this song in my 21 June blog entry. I hope you find the litany and the song as compelling as I do.

O Jesus! meek and humble of heart, Hear me.
From the desire of being esteemed,

Deliver me, Jesus-

From the desire of being loved…
From the desire of being extolled …
From the desire of being honored …
From the desire of being praised …
From the desire of being preferred to others…
From the desire of being consulted …
From the desire of being approved …
From the fear of being humiliated …
From the fear of being despised…
From the fear of suffering rebukes …
From the fear of being calumniated …
From the fear of being forgotten …
From the fear of being ridiculed …
From the fear of being wronged …
From the fear of being suspected …

That others may be loved more than I,
Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.

That others may be esteemed more than I …
That, in the opinion of the world,
others may increase and I may decrease …
That others may be chosen and I set aside …
That others may be praised and I unnoticed …
That others may be preferred to me in everything…
That others may become holier than I,
provided that I may become as holy as I should…

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